E'steem: Little Girl Lost Page 4
“And what was that?”
“My work here on earth.”
“Rethinking your scared straight campaign?”
“I am. After seeing how I scared Melissa, I’m starting to see the limitations of remaining a demon.”
“You finally want to take off your mask?”
“I’m starting to see the impact this face of mine could have on people.”
“But you’re scared.”
I’d love to do like Elsa and let it go. But being human still bothers me. “For eons I wanted to believe that this was the mask. “And that the demon was the real me.”
“It never was the real you.”
“No,” I say falling onto John’s bed and slipping off my boots. “But it’s been my security blanket for the last couple of thousand years.”
“And you’re afraid to go out in the world without it.”
It scares the crap out of me thinking about being that vulnerable. “I think I could help a lot more people if I broke Lucifer’s hold on me.” I say untying the belt of my dress. “But I’d have to wonder if the sacrifice I’d make would be worth it.”
“I’d like to think being free of him would be worth it-”
“I’d be free. But I’d be powerless.”
“You’d have more power than you could ever imagine.”
I’d be just like him. “But I wouldn’t have the power to protect you-”
John flashes me a smile. “I can take care of myself.”
I’m starting to believe that after seeing him in action over the last year and a half. “Er…You do know we work in a office tower full of demons. Many of whom want to kill you-”
“Your soul should be more important to you than my life.” John says taking my hand.
“I don’t think I could live with myself if something happened to you-”
“I want to see you break Lucifer’s hold over you.”
“Breaking that hold over my body could cost you your life-”
“Don’t worry about me. You’re this close to a breakthrough.” John says meeting my eyes. “I’d like to see you get your blessing.”
And the only person to keep me receiving that blessing is me. “Ever since I was a girl I’ve always wanted to help people. “But I guess I can’t really start helping people like Melissa unless I help myself.”
“I’d like to think more people will see how great you truly are when you start showing them your real face.”
“Melissa thinks I’m going to be an angel.”
“I think you could be on your way to turning those horns into a halo Helpmeet.”
Maybe I could. “I don’t know if I’d be worthy of a halo with all the naughty thoughts I was thinking on the way here…”
“If only I knew what I you were imagining about me...”
I give John a playful smile as I peel out of my clothes. While he gets an eyeful of the curves on my hourglass figure, I slip into his comfortable green shirt. As I ease into his lap and he wraps his arms around me I give him a playful smile. “You don’t have to imagine.” I say. “I’ll show you what I’m thinking. Now where were we…”
About The Author
Shawn James is the author of a dozen paperbacks, three screenplays, and over thirty eBooks. A graduate of Monroe College he’s been writing for over twenty years.
Other eBooks by Shawn James
Isis Series:
Isis
Isis: Trial of the Goddess
Isis: Amari's Revenge
Isis: The Ultimate Fight
Isis: The Beauty Myth
Isis: Death of a Theta
Isis: My Sister, My Frenemy
Isis: All About the Goddess
Isis: Wrath of the Cybergoddess
Isis: Power of the Princess
Isis: Night of the Vampires
E’steem Series
The Saga of MastiKatious
Baptism of Blood- The Origin of E’steem
The Politics of Hell
E’steem: Deadly D’lilah
E’steem: No Good Deed
E’steem: Demons Anonymous
E’steem The Beast from the Bowels
E’steem: Undercover
Fantasy fiction by Shawn James
The Temptation of John Haynes
Young Adult fiction by Shawn James
The Sneakers
The Thetas
Romance by Shawn James
A Recipe For $ucce$$
The Muse
Screenplays by Shawn James
All About Marilyn
All About Nikki- The Fabulous First Season
All About Nikki- The Sensational Second Season
All About Nikki- The Lost Episodes
Spray em’ Up
Non-Fiction by Shawn James:
Stop Simpin- Why Men Don’t Need Finance to Get Romance
Stop Simpin in the Workplace
Manginas-They Look Like Men But Act Like Ladies
The Myth of the Strong Black Woman
Why 70 percent of Black Women are Single
An Analysis of the Comic Book Industry’s business issues
Also published by SJS DIRECT
Commencement
School of Hard Knocks: The Re-education of Jim Reid
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